the break up

We broke up. And it's final. I don't even know where to begin, but it happened yesterday. I'm sure no one will be really surprised about this fact. It ended badly to say the least and I want to try and get it all out of my head so that it's all documented. The other day he was being kinda mean to L and so I said something to him about it and we got in to a pretty huge fight about it actually. Then he apologized on Friday and said he would be nicer to L and try hard to make me happy. So then Saturday was a lovely day and we just had a really nice day. Sunday I woke up and L came to my bed like usual, nothing out of the ordinary. but D got really upset and told her she can go to her room or go to bed. So she said, D is mean, he's not my friend anymore. So D said, then don't fucking talk to me. So I got upset, OBVIOUSLY. Then he went outside to smoke so I sat down to watch TV. He came back in and sat down and turned his xbox on and started to play. So I said I was watching tv. and he said something like, well if L can break the rules and do whatever she wants in this house then so can i. He doesn't like L in our bedroom, but the rule was only if we weren't in there, so I have no idea why he got all pissy. So anyway, I said, well this kinda shows me that maybe we need to take a break from eachother. and he said, no you just need to start discipling L more and start listening to the one request I've ever had, which was not to let her in our room. Ok, my house is small to begin with, if I had a mansion or something then I could totally see applying that rule, and secondly, she is 3 years old, she is still a baby and if she wants to be in my room with me then who cares? So I went in to J's room to nurse her and d came in and started talking to me like everything was fine. So I said, I meant what I said, I think we need to take a break from eachother. and he's like, yeah well that's what britney told me too(his ex wife) and then she cheated on me. then he was like, if I leave I'm taking J with me. There is no way in hell you are going to do to me what britney did to me. Then he said he was going to take J and move to alabama. Then he slammed the door and started punching the wall, when he walked out he slammed the door then I heard another crash and L started screaming. So I went out there and he was putting her on her bed telling her to go to be(it was 10am). So I am not sure if he pushed her or what happened since I wasn't out there to witness it. She says he pushed her though. But says it was by J's door, so I'm thinking she meant when he slammed the door in her face(not hurting her). So I went to my room next, all the while holding j. Although he did grab her a couple times but then just kept giving her back to me to feed her, change her, soothe her. I went to my room, put my coat on and put my i-pod in my coat pocket. When I came outta my room he said, good luck leaving, I have your phone and keys. He whipped my keys outside but then went back and got them and then put both my phone and keys in a lock box. He then said you think I'm a dickhead, I'll show you dickhead. YOu are not leaving and not even going to work tomorrow. L comes back out so he takes her back to bed yet again. So i go in her room to console her. He had J so I hurry up and take my i-pod out and jump on myspace, we luckily have wireless in the house. I messaged my brother and all it said was, get mom here now. He lives in NC. It was only 10:30 by this point and I know my bro sleeps in late, but I didn't know who else to messege. He came back to L's room and told me to come out to the living room and keep L in her room by herself. he had this crazy ass look in his eyes, it was so scarey. At this point I got calm and kept trying to get him to talk to me, and telling him stuff like, ya know this is definitly not the way to keep me around, if anything it's just going to push me away. He went out to smoke again so I went back to l's room and sent a message on myspace to my dad's gf saying the same thing in hopes she would check it. At around 12 D says he's sorry and that we should start over, so I asked for my things and he still said no. My mom got there about 12:10. I was just like thank God! She said, my brother had called her. He later told me that he was not going to check myspace cause he was going househunting that morning, but decided to check it because he needed to go online to get some directions. Lucky me, huh? So she tried talking to D but he just kept saying that he'd prefer not to talk to her. Then he said I was not taking J with me. So he went in the bedroom, got my phone and keys and told me he'd switch me for the baby. I said no. So he set the keys and phone on the table and I grabbed them. All the while holding J. So my mom said finally, after calling my cousin who is a policeman, that we should just go. So she got J's carseat we put her in and just left. He didn't try to physically stop us thank God. The whole thing could have been much worse. I have lots of work to do so I can't really finish my story. Bottom line is though that I will not be getting back with him in the near future and if he ever wishes to get back with me he needs counseling and anger management. I ended up filling out a police report because of his threats to take J out of state, not to mention that taking a person's cell phone and keys is a felony. But I did not press charges. The policeman I talked to had him come down for questioning and he confessed to it all and admitted he had anger problems. The policeman was about to let him go when he noticed there was a warrant out for his arrest, so they took him in. HE didn't even know he had a warrant, it was for child support of his daughter. His cousin came up with the $500 bail, and D gave his cousin his xbox for the money. I'll continue later, but that is the jist of this story. Yuck. I'm not okay, but I know in time I will try. Here is to a fresh new start.