aortic stenosis

I got diagnosed with Aortic Stenosis this week. I have no idea really what it even is..just something with my heart. I have had a heart murmur since birth and it was never really an issue. I went to a specialist when I was about 6 and that was it..they said it was mild and that I could still play sports and do everything a normal kid can do. end of story. I had an echo done about 3 years ago only because I was having some chest pains and it came back fine..it's a weird murmur my dr. said, but still not harmful to me. Now I just had another echo a couple weeks ago because my ob recomended it to make sure I need to be hooked to an IV durning labor and delivery. Well the results came back and they say yes I for sure will need the IV of antibiotics and that I have something called Aortic Stenosis. He then proceeds to tell me that this is not good in pregnancy and that women that have this usually need a c-section or forceps for delivery because I am not supposed to push. ( or else I could die!? ) So then I proceeded to say, well I've had a normal delivery in the past and he was like, oh well that makes me feel a lot better, blah blah...I'm just like, yeah you are the one that delivered my first baby! Then he says he's going to talk to the cardiologist again and let them know that i have already had a natural child birth once. My next appointment is June 18th and he is supposed to be giving me more answers at that time, so he better! I am a little freaked out.. Oh then just before I was going to leave he's like, this is a fatal thing, about 1/4 survival rate!! oh geez, thanks doc. SO I'm a bit freaked out and can't wait to just get more results. He also said something about valve replacement surgery and some ultrasound where they would need to knock me out for it cuz they go in through your mouth or something. I think I'd get a second opinion before doing anything like that! I've come to the realization that if anything can go wrong this time around, it's going to. Things with D are about the same. We fight, then we are okay again, then we fight and are okay again. It was never like this prepregnancy so who knows. I'm chalking it up to my being pregnant right now. Sometimes I feel like he just doesn't respect me enough though..maybe I do deserve better? I don't know. my feelings and emotions are so mixed and I honestly don't know how i feel right now. I hope that when the baby gets here he actually helps me out a little more..I'm sure that will be the determining factor of this relationship. The money thing is a huge strain on us right now. I knew going in to this that he didn't have a lot of money though so I should just shut up about it, but it's hard sometimes. His daughter just turned 6 so this weekend we are having cupcakes at our house with his aunt and uncle coming over. I'm going to buy a blow up pool too so that the girls can swim a little bit, it's going to be 90 this weekend so we need to be prepared. thank goodness for Central air...ahhhhhhh. Well, time to get back to work!